It’s time for a blog, but what about? Since February, there hasn’t been a single uneventful/boring day, but since I struggle sitting down for too long, I haven’t written about all the shenanigans I’ve experienced. What easily comes to my mind is, once again, weddings. I have been to three this year, missed one due to a bachelor party and a dead phone (sorry Blair), and I have at least two more confirmed I must attend. No, I’m not a wedding crasher, as fun as that sounds; it’s just that several of my close friends have already tied or are getting ready to tie the knot.
I receive these “save the date” magnets quite frequently now, and all I want is just a second date with someone. Attending and being in so many weddings has got me thinking more than I usually do about being a 23 year old male who hasn’t really even been committed to anyone …ever. Sure I joke around about being a happy bachelor for life, but I probably do that to make myself feel better. Now, I certainly do not plan on becoming the male version of Carrie Bradshaw, writing about myself and my friends desperately trying to secure our own prince charming/princess. However, it really isn’t normal to not have been in a monogamous relationship being this age. It’s not like I’ve been under a rock, or away from civilization. I’m just scared of it I guess. I’d like to think I’m independent and don’t need anybody to distract or cause more drama in my life than is necessary, but deep down don’t we all want someone to love and them love us back. I certainly wouldn’t want to settle for anybody, but I’ll never know unless I try. Staying single is my comfort zone and to start a relationship would be risky and could lead to a messy breakup, rejection, or heartbreak: none of which I am eager to experience. All that being said, I plan to continue to write/blog about my single status, dates, sex, and whatever else normally leads to the day two people decide to commit their lives to each other. Of course, this won’t be all I write; there are many other topics that I am way more passionate about, but maybe this could lead to me finally growing a pair and saying ,”yes I’ll be your boyfriend.” Then again I may end up like Samantha, who at the end of the Sex and the City movie realizes she is just too in love with herself to be in love with someone else. Sounds selfish, but I don’t think it’s a bad thing, at least for some individuals. As Allison Krauss so beautifully sang in song,” People seem to think I only got on problem: I can’t find nobody as crazy as me,” but will I? Stay tuned and you may know. Peace and love!
Until the next time,
marcus
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